As I sat there gazing at my plate of Caesar Salad, pasta and side of pretzels, there was this eerie sensation that I was indeed making progress. After all, pasta has been on my avoid list for almost 10 years and pretzels are something I sneak as I walk into the pantry and hope no one notices. Here I was sitting with a lit candle, placemat and gentle music. This actually felt pleasurable. I cannot remember the last time I truly felt like I enjoyed my food.
As I ate and began to breath through my heart, a technique I often refer to while teaching yoga classes, I fell in love with the moment, the tastes and myself. To my surprise, I was satisfied before I finished my plate, no need for seconds, no guilt, no feeling of heaviness with a lingering craving of not enough. I didn’ t even eat the pretzels! I sat and enjoyed the experience further as I gazed out in appreciation for the gleaming sun that feeds us all.
I had resisted this experience for so long, the slowing down, the pleasure, and yet it became the first moment of nutritional freedom I felt since childhood. My fear was that if I enjoyed my food or celebrated myself for being less than perfect I would not only indulge and not stop but also destroy any hope for growth. I was proven sooo wrong- in fact, I ate less nutrient empty foods, more nutritious foods and felt the desire to love more deeply which opened up doors that where beyond my imagination prior to healing.
This was just one of the many experiences that occurred during my healing journey and I am so grateful and in such appreciation for the love and support I received as a student of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating. I was at a point where I thought healing was not only extremely hard but also out of reach. I wanted to take the course, so I could assist others to see another way and influence young women to choose another path so no one would experience where I was and in the process I too found nutritional freedom.
Today, I am honored to not only assist others find their way towards radiant health but most importantly to be able to see themselves as their soul sees them; as I see them. To see themselves as the divine creators they came here to be, worthy of unconditional love in every moment regardless of external circumstance.
You deserve to be nourished and loved. You deserve to feel joy, freedom and peace. Not only do you deserve these gifts, they are your birthright. I would be honored to join you on your path of discovering.
Much light and wellness,